Again its been a while

Hi,
I know its been a while.  Well I have been busy. Alot has happened. Over the last few months. In September I had surgery. the same week we got our new place. And after all that every thing seemed to be going great.  And then in october my grandfather passed way.  Which is still affecting me. Over the last few years of his life he was very mean to me and my family. So when he passed I had not seen him in 6 months. I am so very mad at him and I just cant seem to get over the way he treated me. And that I never got a chance to forgive him for what he had done. I feel lost that he is gone. And all my cousins seem to be having truble with it to. And it seems like its all about them and they dont seembto care that I am having truble with this. The only person that knows is my hubby.  My parents seem to think I am fine even though.  I have not seen them since the funeral. I have good days and I have bad ones. And I have mixed days where half is good and a smell or memory makes me sad. I have never been this upset over the death of a family member before. I really want ot to pass. I am at a loss of what to do. I need someone eles to talk to. But feel like I have no one. I am surrounded by friends and my cubs and hubby. But I dont feel like I can talk to any of them. So I am just a lost person. Any ways, So this is what is happening in my life.

Now I am crying so I will talk to you later

Untill next time!!

Mama Bear!

Took a long brake and now I am back

Hi Internet!
   I have not posted for a few months. a lot has happened. Cubs one and Two came home. to a whole new life. We moved. and on top of that we are way farther from town and their school ( which started last week, happy mama bear) I will drive them every day. because I love their school..

next on to me. it took 2 months but I finely got my CT Scan. so I can havery my surgery to remove the lump I found on my throat. and to see what the swelling is about..

I guess that is all for today.

Mama Bear

Sick and Pissed

Hi Internet,
  Today I am going to keep it short. I have been having this problem that where my throat swells up. well it just started swelling again tonight. i am going to go to the Doctor for it soon just its very stressful to get sick all the time. and i have a Migraine. and just want to cry.

Another Big thing going on in my life right know is My Mother. she is being a big bitch about my piercings. I mean really i am 30 years old and don't live with them. i just don't get. and now she is being rude about my throat. So what ever nothing i can do about. she is going to think what she wants. I am sick of being left out of stuff. she always talks about an awesome ride on the bike or something and we don't have a bike so its like they don't want to include us.  she also thinks i am keeping my cubs from her not the case at all. i just want to cry. 

I have to go for today my head hurts to bad. 


Happy Hump Day
Mama Bear 

Random Ramble For my English class

Hi And Good Afternoon,

  One of the things I have been taught in my English class is to free write. which is just to keep writing for 10 min with out stopping. It is supposed to help come up with a topic to write about. So I decided to do my free writing in my Blog to Kill two birds with one stone. LOL.


Here It is 10 Minuets of rambling on. The topic i am looking for is to right about some thing descriptive.



    I really Want a wont Hamburger with some awesome french fry's. Since i got my tongue pierced i have not been able to eat. some soup and applesauce. but i could really go for some food real food. And I am so hungry. My tongue is not swollen any more but it still hurts to eat and sometime to talk you really do have get used to having something in your mouth all the time. i am drinking a Coke for the first time since i did. its really good. seems to be a bit surgery but that is always how i feel about soda in the summer. i would rather have Koolaid or tea. So A descriptive paragraph. what should i write? what should i write. It need to have So Meny details that i wonder if doing it on the way something looks or trying to explain how something look to a blind person might work. Like a house or how would explain how a coke or hamburger tastes to some one with out taste buds?? i think the hamburger would be easy. but the coke that would be hard. i have to use sensory details for my paper. what you hear, see, taste, how it feels. ah sometime i don't understand my baby, she napped yesterday no problem and now today she wont nap.. i need to keep writing so i guess she can wait i have 2 minutes left. So what is it going to be?? maybe i should email my teacher and ask if i could do the hamburger. that might be a good idea. than i would have a better idea of what i need to write and how to go about writing it. i just hope it Don't have to be on something. oh what to write about?? Ah, I give up.. 



 So Funny Thing i wrote this last week. and forgot to post it. Lol. Then got busy and just know looked at it.

So Any ways Have a awesome day

Mama Bear 

Monday Blues!!

 HI Internet,

     What A busy week I have had. last week I got really sick, So I did not have my day care Cubs. On Saturday Papa Bear and I took Cub 1 And cub 2 To meet their dad at the airport so they could go to CA. They have only been gone 2 days and i miss them so much.
   
     My Classes seem to be getting more crazy. I cant Believe how much work there is to do. oh well it will be worth it some day.

 On Saturday, I got my Tongue Pierced not once but twice.

 so now I have 2 huge Barbells in my mouth. which is driving me crazy. Its day 3 and my tongue is still swollen and I still cant eat but I only have 7 more days and i can change the barbells to smaller one's. which are so cute. And I want to change my lip to a black ring. I have a friend that was just telling me how she wants to get snake bites.. Which is what I want So in a few weeks we are going to get that done. But a lip piercing hurts so much less then my tongue. 

   Well Today i found out that this will be my last week watching the day care cubs. kind of sad but not that sad. turned into more work then I wanted. Anyways, And i Need to consecrate on my school work. so anyways that's about it for me. have a good night.



 Till Next Time,
   Mama Bear 

 

BusyNess but oh so fun

Hi internet,
So we had such a busy weekend/ Monday. It all started Saturday with the town days. We had some friends doing a both. So we went to have lunch see them and buy some kettle corn and cotton candy. I did not realise we would spend the day hanging out. And then after we all went back to her house for a BBQ. That was real fun. Now here is where the really fun day starts. SUNDAY, Papa bear and I took Cub # 2 to Comic con. On man that was so much fun every one was dress as there favorite character. From every thing movies, sifi, cartoons, games. And so much more. We got so amazing stuff. But the people watching was by far the best.. Now we get to Monday. Oh my we took all 5 cubs to the zoo for the day. We walk around and took our time doing it. Saw every thing. Then went and got some icecream. I think the cubs had a blast.

Now today my loving Papa Bear is going to the grocery store. So I have one less thing to do today.  since today seems to be again very crazy.. Having my 3 cubs and my friend 2 cubs. Plus 3 very demanding classes. I am vwru thankfull to have my Papa bear to help and support me. Important really whatever I want and need to do.
well that's all for today. I must get back to my homework.

Mama Bear

Summer Time!!

Hey Internet people,
This Mama Bear got so busy this week. its the 1st full week of Summer vacation for the cubs. My summer Classes started on Tuesday. so that has been keeping me busy. i wont to stay on top of every thing. to make it easier. The papa Bear is still working nights so we have been going from our House to My Friends House to keep all 5 cubs busy and so he can sleep. I think it will be easier to be over there when 2 of my cubs go to CA.next week he goes back to days. which I love because I get to see him more.

It is so windy here today, but that don't stop the cubs from playing outside. they love to be outside. the girls even worked on their tan today. the wind just makes it so uncomfortable for me so I have stayed inside all day. I did get some homework done and some dishes. so that was good. I Just Got mt Real Estate book today, so i am going to work on that class. It's the one I am most excited about.

Hope you all have a wonderful night.

Mama Bear 

Let just say it's random

Hi Papa Bear ( since you seem to be the only on to read my blog)

The last few days have been so crazy busy. But you know that. I did get sooo much homework done today. I hope I can get some more done tomorrow. I need to do my TIMED math test done. And my reading for English so i can do those Quiz's. So I need your help again please!! I know its lot with the 5 cubs. And i know you need to nap. So I hope i can get it done before then.. Anyways i do love you very much and I do very much appreciate EVERY thing you do for me and our cubs.

With love,
Mama Bear

Happy Saturday!!

HAPPY SATURDAY internet people.
I hope you day as been wonderful. So today we spent the morning relaxing at home. This afternoon we went in to town to get my nails done. While I was doing that, papa bear took the cubs to get some chairs for tonight.  we are going to the drive in. I am so excited. Its going to be so fun. The cubs don't even know yet.  cub #1 has never been. It dose make me sad that there are not very many drive in open any more.  its so much better then going to the movies. At most they show 3 movie at the drive in for 8.00 per adult. Kids are free.. So cheap. Tonight they are showing Oz and then fast 6 ( which just came out yesterday) and last is iron man 3. What an awesome cheap way to spend a Saturday night.. There is one problem. Cub #3 gave me her cold so this mama bear don't feel good. Oh well as a mama bear I will keep going like nothing happened.. I will do the same tomorrow. When papa bear and I go out of town for the night. Cub Free! Well i guess i should call it good for now.  i am sure i will very back later.

Till Later,
Mama Bear. 

Friday Craziness!

Hi Internet, so today I thought I would only write Once . Because my life has gotten chaos with the cool with the cubs being out of school . So today was my first day of watching on my friends Cubs with my own cubs
That makes 5 cubs. Oh and I am so happy I only have 3 children because watching 5 WoW is draining.  So tonight I come to you via is speech to text so I'm talking because typing just seems like too much work. And tonight I am very very lazy and im probably not going to much. I am just way too tired y think I will call it quits for tonight because I can't even hold my eyes open.. So on that note I bid you farewell hope to bring the weekend brings

Thursday Night Final Thought!

Hello There internet people. Well my Thursday night was a lot better then my morning. today was the last day of school for 2 of the cubs. Cub # 1 is on to 4th Grade and Cub # 2 is on to 1st. i can't believe how big my cubs are getting. I feel like I just had them. Its true what they say Don't Blink.

So on to another random thing I am thinking about tonight. Tablet Apps are driving me crazy. and they keep coming with More Awesome Games. Candy Crush Saga is the best worst game ever. i am so addicted to it. and every 2 or 3 levels I go up I get stuck. it makes me want to scream. Then there are old computer games that are just coming out. Like My Newest Tablet Download Diner Dash. 6 Years ago when Cub #2 was a baby i would sit up at night feeding him while playing this game on my HUGE desktop. LOL. and now i have it on my Tablet and Phone. What the Hell. I swear I have a life and do other stuff then just play these STUPID ADDICTIVE games. I still seem to be a good Mama Bear, Wife, And Some could Argue this but I am a good friend and college student. I can only do what I can.

Well Now that i am done rambling about My games. I would like to tell you how Much this Mama Bear LOVES Piercings. I recently got the left side of my lip done. and i cant wait to get the right done. And My Tongue done. Once Those are done I am hoping that I wont want any more. I am kind of running out of places to pierce. And Places to be able to hide a Piercing so I can get a good job.
I know you cant hide Snake Bites But I can take them out when i need to and put them back in when i am done. Some Might Argue that i am to old to be doing such Juvenal things. well to them I say Not your Body, Not your Life, Get over it. Its what I want to do.

I Wonder if any one is reading my blog. ( Beside Papa Bear, Love you Babe. Thanks for reading.) 
 And thank you internet People For reading. Please Subscribe to my blog I Post in the afternoon and before bed.

Okay I am Done Rambling for tonight.
 
Goodnight,
Mama Bear 

   

Thursday After noon Blues

Good Afternoon,
Hope every  one is having a awesome day. My day stated out on a bad note. So thhis morning Papa Bear woke me up with some sad news. His aunt is in the Hospital. She is going to be ok but not the best news too wake up to. Even with the bad news i tried to make my morning a happy one. I went to a meeting with my Real Estate teacher. Which went good, got all the work I got all the work I need ffor the summer. I also got my English book. Now i just need my real estate book and i will be ready for my classes.

Now, I got the Cub #2 and 3 down for a Nap. So I can get some Boring house stuff done and go to cub #1's Award ceremony. That is always so much fun ( Not) But I go for my Cubs. I guess it gives me a brake from Cub #2 And 3. They are going to stay home with Papa Bear.

One thing I am looking forward to is Seeing Cub #1's Report Card. Which I will tell you internet about later to night in my final thought blog.

I guess I should go and get some stuff done. I have a migraine coming I can feel it. And I dont need one right now. Have to much stuff to do. 

That's all for know!
Mama Bear 

Wendsday Night Final Thoughts

 What A wonderful day I had today. Started with Cub # 2 doing a very cute Play at school, Then lunch and Nap time For Cub #3 and Papa Bear. Rest time for me And Cub #2. The Funny Part is Cub #3 did not nap But cub #2 did. With Papa Bear working nights he needed to nap. I wanted to nap but cub #3 was still up. See with cub #3 if she naps she wont sleep at night. If she don't nap she is asleep by 8:30. But sometimes she need a nap so we still try and give her one. she just don't always sleep. Next we had dinner and Cub #2 T-Ball Game Which he did amazing at. and then home and to bed for the Cubs. Now, All 3 Cubs are in bed and asleep. And Mama Bear is playing on the computer. LOL.

  Tomorrow, Is bitter sweet for me. My Cubs keep growing and growing. and with Tomorrow being the last day of school it just means they are growing up more. Cub #1 Will be in 4th grade this fall and cub #2 will be in first. Wow, How times change. Even from just a year ago. I like the changes I have made for myself and my family. I would like to think they like it too. I know Papa Bear does.

 I do love Papa Bear a lot. He does a lot for us. He always make sure we are happy and taken care of before himself. which is so awesome. You don't find very many men that do that. I really hope Papa bear knows how much we love him and appreciate what he does for us.

Another last minute thought, I have not decided how often I will be Blogging. But I did add the Blogger app to my phone today, so that it will make it easier for me to blog from where ever I am. I might add it to my tablet too. So again I can blog from where ever I am. Since i got my tablet i seem to never use my Computer, and my tablet has a key bored.     

Okay, this is my ramble final thoughts for the night. oh wow did I ramble. and here I am rambling about rambling. LOL.

I will Now Say Goodnight to you all, I hope you have sweet dreams. 
Mama Bear
   

My First Blog!

  Hello, This is my first attempt at a Blog. I feel it is a good way for me to express how I feel about every thing from my kids to my friends, Life and every thing else I need to talk about. I am a very busy Mama Bear and Full Time college student. Now you can see why I am busy. My Cubs are Number one to me. what they do always comes first. 
  
  Today, is Wednesday, May 22, 2013. The cubs last day of school is tomorrow. i cant wait. we only have about 2 weeks before the older cubs go to CA to spend most of the summer with their dad. I will miss them so much. but I guess they need to see their dad. On a good Note i am watching a friends kids over the summer so I will be still be busy. and I am taking 3 summer classes. One of the classes I am so Excited about the other 2 are just classes I have to take . So that will also Keep me busy. well i guess thats all for now. got to cook dinner and get ready for Cub number 2's T-Ball game.