Hi,
I know its been a while. Well I have been busy. Alot has happened. Over the last few months. In September I had surgery. the same week we got our new place. And after all that every thing seemed to be going great. And then in october my grandfather passed way. Which is still affecting me. Over the last few years of his life he was very mean to me and my family. So when he passed I had not seen him in 6 months. I am so very mad at him and I just cant seem to get over the way he treated me. And that I never got a chance to forgive him for what he had done. I feel lost that he is gone. And all my cousins seem to be having truble with it to. And it seems like its all about them and they dont seembto care that I am having truble with this. The only person that knows is my hubby. My parents seem to think I am fine even though. I have not seen them since the funeral. I have good days and I have bad ones. And I have mixed days where half is good and a smell or memory makes me sad. I have never been this upset over the death of a family member before. I really want ot to pass. I am at a loss of what to do. I need someone eles to talk to. But feel like I have no one. I am surrounded by friends and my cubs and hubby. But I dont feel like I can talk to any of them. So I am just a lost person. Any ways, So this is what is happening in my life.
I know its been a while. Well I have been busy. Alot has happened. Over the last few months. In September I had surgery. the same week we got our new place. And after all that every thing seemed to be going great. And then in october my grandfather passed way. Which is still affecting me. Over the last few years of his life he was very mean to me and my family. So when he passed I had not seen him in 6 months. I am so very mad at him and I just cant seem to get over the way he treated me. And that I never got a chance to forgive him for what he had done. I feel lost that he is gone. And all my cousins seem to be having truble with it to. And it seems like its all about them and they dont seembto care that I am having truble with this. The only person that knows is my hubby. My parents seem to think I am fine even though. I have not seen them since the funeral. I have good days and I have bad ones. And I have mixed days where half is good and a smell or memory makes me sad. I have never been this upset over the death of a family member before. I really want ot to pass. I am at a loss of what to do. I need someone eles to talk to. But feel like I have no one. I am surrounded by friends and my cubs and hubby. But I dont feel like I can talk to any of them. So I am just a lost person. Any ways, So this is what is happening in my life.
Now I am crying so I will talk to you later
Untill next time!!
Mama Bear!
